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Mar. 30th, 2005 @ 01:43 pm Bah!
Feeling: determineddetermined
Tunes: New Edition ♥ Candy Girl
My mom wanted to discuss what I am doing with my life again. You know what? It is really hard to tell someone you want to do something with your life when you have no fucking clue where to even begin. I need guidance from someone else. All she says is "How do you plan on paying for this?". Just because I don't currently have a job doesn't mean I will be a slacker for the rest of my life. (I am looking for a job everyday, except no one will hire you without any experience!) I would love to go back to California and live, but lets get realistic, it is expensive. I would have to continue living with my parents until God knows when. Or, I could just get a roommate. Of course, I may hate them and won't be happy. I really do not want to go to CSUMB. I would love to live in Monterey when I am older. Now, no.

Today I have been looking for colleges to transfer to. Universities, colleges, state school; it is all so annoying. I have looked in California, Nevada, and Florida so far. I don't want to live in the mid-west, and I don't think I want to move up North, although I would LOVE to go to Boston University. If I attended college in California my options are University of California -- San Diego, San Diego State University, University of California -- Santa Cruz, University of Southern California, San Jose State University, University of San Diego. And so on and on. Nevada only has one college I actually want to attend, which is University of Nevada -- Las Vegas. I don't even know any of the places in Florida I would go to. I don't want to attend a huge party school, and I don't want to stay in Maryland. I hear so many people who aren't happy with their current college situation.

I am just lost. I swear, this could be my mind-life crisis and I am only twenty. I haven't even applied to any of them because I am so disorganized at the moment. I don't even know if I want the degree I am currently trying to obtain. I would love to get a degree in Psychology or Marine Biology or even Zoology. Maybe Criminal Justice. Here I am obtaining a fucking Business degree. I kick myself in the ass every day for being such a slacked in high school. If I only got better grades I could attend a better school. Lucky Billy got into College of Maryland -- College Park. He isn't attending though. I wish I can get into a halfway decent school.
Mar. 29th, 2005 @ 11:34 am School, school, school.
Feeling: enragedenraged
I HATE ECONOMICS!
Mar. 28th, 2005 @ 10:14 am Economics is the best.
Feeling: workingworking
I am getting such a bad grade in my economics class that I have to work my ass off to actually raise it. I am just a slacker in that class. In every other class I am doing fine. I have so much homework to do because I slacked this spring break. But it was well worth it.

We went to Busch gardens. That's all. Nothing spectacular. It was fun, although freezing. Going on rides when it was cold was a bad idea because we both got sick. Oh, I got shit on by a bird. That was pretty fun too. It smelled really bad. I almost threw up. Man, you guys should see the pictures.
Mar. 21st, 2005 @ 10:18 pm Rings are never really scary.
Feeling: contemplativecontemplative
Billy and I just got back from seeing "The Ring Two". Wow. That was the biggest crap I have ever sat through. The movie was entirely terrible. There was no plot. Questions were unanswered. Like, why did the deer attack? How did she find you? The sequence of the movie was also terrible. The horror-type feel was recycled from the first. So, really? Just keep watching the first one. In all seriousness though, the only thing that brought the damn movie was the acting. Naomi Watts and that kid, who I have forgotten his name currently, did a very good job. But wow. Never again. Never ever again.

Another good thing added to seeing this horrible movie, was the good previews. Minus the stupid one with Drew Barrymore and Jimmy Fallon. Talk about crap. I swear movies nowadays don't have to have any concept or plot. Like one of those racing movies.

And only here in this hick county would you go to a movie and see a fucking commercial for NASCAR. Fuck, I love America. The land of the beautiful...rednecks.

I am contemplating why I wasted my life sitting through that horrible piece of trash.

And this is the first day of spring break.
Mar. 19th, 2005 @ 10:19 am
Feeling: contentcontent
Apartment, scholarship, and school looking is hard. But on the plus side, Billy and I found this slamming apartment for $860 a month. It has two bedrooms and two baths. Seriously, Vegas vacation this summer. We need to figure out what the hell we are doing.
Mar. 18th, 2005 @ 05:01 pm Star wars!
Feeling: excitedexcited
Tunes: Star Wars Trailer
Oh, wow! I cannot believe it. I saw the trailer to Episode 3: Revenge of the Sith, and I swear I had a mini-orgasm. I cannot wait to see this last installment. Although I don't think Hayden can act very well. I am really glad that he is finally going to the dark side and that the Sith Lords are coming out. Oooh, I am such a nerd. Also, I love, love, love that the Wookies are being introduced.

Hey, I am not really a nerd, I swear I like Star Wars in a healthy way. Since I have been playing the video games I have been getting into it very much though. Hopefully this one isn't as disappointing as the first 2.
Mar. 17th, 2005 @ 01:01 pm I am wearing green!
Feeling: giddygiddy
Tunes: Oh, Danny Boy
Time to celebrate my Irish culture. Yippie! I won't get drunk today though, because EVERYONE does that. Last year, I made an Irish feast with soda bread and all that snazz. This year, I crave Outback.
Mar. 16th, 2005 @ 01:27 pm OMGZ!
Feeling: hungryhungry
Spring break is next week. Yay! Finally! The semester is almost done. I am hungry.
Mar. 14th, 2005 @ 09:00 am Graduation can't come any sooner?
Feeling: hungryhungry
Tunes: The Dryer
I am failing, at this moment, economics. Whatever I do, I just cannot get into this class. It doesn't help that my professor is an asshole either.

Today I have a test in Zoology. I don't mind that though. I am doing very well in that class. I think it is because the professor is only 25 or so. She makes the class fun. Then after that class is ended, I have my Zoology lab. I will be in class until about 9 o'clock tonight.

Tomorrow I have my calculus class test. It is funny because I haven't learned one thing in that class but I got a "B+" on the other test. (I really suck at math though.) He is such an easy professor, except he never knows what he is doing.

I talked to mmy Dad on Saturday about coming here in May. He is coming, although he never has money. I swear he does, he just doesn't want me to know he does. Although I NEVER ask for money from him.
Mar. 13th, 2005 @ 09:46 am Sleep.
Feeling: blahblah
Last night I went to bed so early. I am so old. I never go out past 11 o'clock and I am only twenty. Yesterday I bought some clothes. Clothes shopping is fun with the right person. I go on and on.